2008-06-24

Crying all night makes me feel better now. Giving myself over to the agony and had a good cry, I felt it cleanse my soul. Expressing my sadness instead of keeping it in, keeps me feeling better and hoping the healing will begin all the sooner. I guess I’m one of those people who’s meant to be alone. Its awful when it comes to picking men, and I need to concentrate on work if I’m going to be able to take care of myself in the future. I feel like an idiot for having so easily deceived. The feeling of not to trust men and thinking that men are all the same makes me think “I deserve to be myself forever.” It’s so unfair to blame myself and to feel stupid to have chosen a person who later does wrong to me. Why punish myself because I feel in love? To blame myself will do nothing to help me from “mistakes” and become a better person. Life is to short to wake up in the morning with regrets. and to love the people who treat me right , and forget about the ones who don’t believe that everything happens for a reason. If it changes my life let it be. Nobody says that it would be easy they just promised it would be worth it.

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