2008-06-05

Last night when were about to go to sleep my daughter told me something (in a very soft voice). Mama, tomorrow I don’t want to go home, i want to stay with you I don’t want to watch a movie with my Papa. I want to watch a movie with you. “can we watch a movie together with you and my papa”. Naughty girl! I smiled and said. Sorry my baby I can’t go with you I have to go to work and your father don’t like that idea, I don’t think he will allow me to go with you together with him. And she showed me her sad face. I told her don’t be sad. next time we will watch a movie together. and she smiled and said, together with my papa? I said no! only us! why mama you don’t like my papa to go with us? Here we are again… I don’t know how to explain to her without hurting her feelings. I just told her one thing. Baby your to young to know and to understand why our situation is like this, when you grow old you will understand. And she smiled and said. Okey mama promise me next time we will watch a movie together! I promise!!! Oh my God! I know promises is made to be broken. what should I do? I don’t want to hurt her feelings. I know there is no growth without change, no change without fear or loss, and no loss without pain. The truth is, whatever you can’t talk about is already out of control in your life. The sweetness of my dear daughter makes me realize that she’s growing so fast.

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