2008-07-10

I had a visitor last night. For almost three months he beg for my time just to see and talk to me personally. He called and sent a messages early in the morning asking a favor if we can talk. But last night I let him talked and see me for the last time. My ex-boyfriend. He’s asking if we can bring back the past and start all over again, because until now according to him his love for me still the same and getting more stronger than before. I told him “I’m sorry but I don’t love you anymore” he looked at me with teary eyed and hold my hands and saying “please don’t say that… I’m dying inside. I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you. I’m asking you to love me again. I will not promise anything but I won’t do it again and i will be faithful to you, comeback to me please.” People don’t realize what they have until they lost it. I gave him a second chance before but he did it again and now asking for a third chance? I gave my trust to him but he took it for granted. Every body deserves to have a second chance but giving it for the third time it’s a foolish thing to do. I gave my love and trust to him but now is gone. He told me this words before he leaved. ” I never loved like this until I met you. your my great love and you will stay in my heart forever.” I felt his pain when he leave my place he couldn’t walked, and looked back at me trying to hide the tears in his eyes. After two hours I received a text message from him, ” It’s like I came from far dessert place, I don’t know how I came home. I’m sorry! I’m so ashamed. I swallowed my pride feeling so small. But thank you for giving me a chance to see you for the last time, take care of yourself, I hope your happy with your life now.” I’m sorry too. thank you for loving me… If only I could turned back the time…

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