2008-05

Sunday is an extraordinary day for me. While fixing my things I saw my old photo albums. This albums contains my younger years with my friends and family. It feels good to see an old pictures and it reminds me the good and the bad times during my younger years. The memories will stays until the pictures fade away. Some pictures bring back the pain I had before some makes me smile and some makes me cry. This pictures are one of my treasures that I want to keep until my last breath on earth. For me pictures are the lasting memory that i have from the people who’s been part of my life especially my family. There was one moment in my life when I’m with someone and I feel like the world has stopped and my life seems so perfect. and I asked someone to take us pictures for a remembrance for that special day. I will make sure that I will never lose the pictures especially that person. Pictures is the best remembrance that I have, to keep it and to bring back the memories of the happiest and memorable moments in my life.

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I had a bad dream this early morning. My alarm wakes me up at 6 in the morning, but I’m still sleepy so I went back to sleep. In my dream. I waked up that I’m floating in my room full of water a clear water it’s like I’m in a swimming pool. I went out my room then I open the main door to drain the water then after that there was a flow of water again coming but the water was so dirty and full of garbage. I saw my bed sheet when I’m about to get it, it turned out into another scene and it was I’m in the middle of the river and the water was so dirty and it’s light brown color. I saw a tree in the river I swim towards the tree to save myself because the water flow was so strong. and I saw again my bed sheet floating so I tried to get it but under the water there was a hand who pulled my hand it feels like a hand of a woman she pulls me so hard it’s like she wanted me to go with her in the river and go with the water flow. But she didn’t got me. While crying and so afraid I swim towards the side of the river and asking for a help but no one was there to help me, then I woke up. Oh my God!? What a bad dream? It’s been normal for me to dream that I’m in an ocean or swimming pool, it’s been a year ago that I didn’t dream about water. What is the meaning of this dream? Are there problems in store? some danger is on the way? Oh God! what ever it is, please help me to overcome my future obstacles.

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When I’m on my way home tonight, while I’m in the taxi, the driver played a song to his disk player an old songs. there’s one song that reminds me of my father. His favorite song. It’s been a long time I’ve never seen my father, I think its 5 years or more since the last time we talked personally. I saw him through pictures only when my sister went to our province last February. I’m trying to call him tonight but his cellphone was off. my brother told me that his okay alive and kicking! I’m closed to my father since my childhood days we had something in common, we like music. during his teenage life he was a musician a lead vocalist. I remembered during my school days he wakes up early in the morning and played his favorite foreign songs so loudly. I miss him…. I know he’s alone… same as me… I wonder what he’s doing now??? We love him so much! I remember he asked my forgiveness the last time we talked. He’s forgiven to all the heartaches had caused us. because of his favorite song it reminds me that I still have a father to care for and his birthday is fast approaching. Advance HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Papa, I miss you! hope to see you soon!!!

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