2009-11-10

Last night we had our board meeting in our favorite meeting place in cafeteria. After our meeting I took a taxi cab. In the cab the radio was playing Christmas song and I told the driver “oh Christmas is past approaching when I heard Christmas song I feel sad I don’t know why I feel that way.” The driver told me, maybe because it’s a cold season and a season for spending money, sad for the people who don’t have money to spend.” And he asked me “why you feel lonely when you hear Christmas song?” I don’t know why I feel lonely, during my childhood it was the best month for me because it’s my birth month too, but now I can’t explain why I feel the sadness in my heart. Some people says Christmas is for children, yes it is! My kids are excited for Christmas day because they are excited for the gifts. I remember one Christmas eve and my birthday as well, I celebrated my 20th birthday, it was the best birthday for me because all the people I saw was so happy, they’re all smiling at me saying happy birthday! That time even I don’t received any gifts from them I was so happy, I’m happy to share my blessing to the people who loved and treated me like a family. I miss that moment, I miss my relatives who took care of me when I’m away from my family. But for now, I’m looking forward in celebrating Christmas day with my children, it’s the best Christmas for me without them my Christmas will never be the same again. But still wondering, why I feel sadness when I hear Christmas song? In time I will know the answer…

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