2008-09-21

I had a vivid dream last night. A dream that I felt it’s real. In my dream, I went back home in our province. I saw our old house where I grew up. A house that full of sad and happy memories during my childhood and teenage life. I saw myself cleaning the house that I usually do in my teenage and in real life. I love gardening and I love red and white roses. In my dream I saw myself clearly doing all the things I did same as before. I had a dream that happened in real life. What is the meaning of my dream? When I woke up I read my book about the interpretation of dreams. The book interpreted that its a sign of joy and happiness. I hope my dream will do come true in real life. We all know that there is suffering in life, and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But for me it’s better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for my dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what I’m fighting for. My dream help me to realize that at this point of my life, even when we are sunk in the stormiest moments of life, I should never, never, never lose hope. Problems are here to help us enjoy life more fully. There will always be a solution in the end.

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Friday night were supposed to have a meeting with my colleagues but I chose not to attend because I felt my friend need someone to talk with. Its been three weeks we didn’t see and talk to each other. We took dinner. While we’re taking dinner she shared her heart aches and personal problems to me. She managed to control herself not to cry in front of me and to some people in the restaurant. She’s really strong unlike me. I’m so easy to express my feelings to someone’s close to me. Before we departed she told me she feels okay, the heaviness in her heart was gone. While waiting for the taxi. three of my friends phone me inviting to be with them to go some place to feel relax and enjoy. I refused their invitation because I need to go home for my children will come to my place but they couldn’t come because it’s midnight when I noticed the time. It took one and half hour waiting for the taxi to come because of heavy traffic. When I arrived home I felt the aloneness and loneliness. I absorbed the heartaches and disappointments of my friend. Again to express my sadness I turned to cry and told myself, here I am again like a child crying over and over again. Here is my favorite song. I hope you will like it.

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