My Heart And Me

Last night my friend visited me in my place, he knows that I’m sick and he insisted to be with me for I am alone because my kids will not spent weekend with me, he’s a bit worried because I’m not feeling well, he’s so sweet for giving his time instead of taking a rest after a whole day meeting from his office. While taking dinner we had a heart to heart talk. I asked him about his wife during their happy days before they get separated. He said “we are very much okay, when I was working abroad we don’t have problem, I went home one’s a day from Singapore and went back on the same day just to see and check them if they’re okay. We don’t have problem when it comes to money matter, we see to it that all are in place, for our future and especially for our children.” But I get tired of the set up, I decided to resigned from my former multinational company for good and look for a job here. My wife started to nag at me asking to have quality time with her, she wants to be with her always. I am working and I want to have time also for myself.” Lol! I said, your a family man you should have quality time for your family. He replied, “yes I know, but I prioritize my job over them, I love my work, I work hard for them, I like going to different places, it’s part of my job. My wife wanted me to tell her every time where I’m going.” she’s your wife she has the right to know where your going and up to. Oh God! this man is crazy! I asked him, why did you get married? Your selfish you only think of yourself! And he said, “I just realize that me and my wife have a different views in life, she doesn’t understand me about my passion in work, I’m the type of a person of not being satisfied on one thing, I love exploring and adventure. I love doing many things, I want busy life.” Lol! I know the recipe for success is work, work, work, no wonder at his young age he earned his executive position in one of the big and top company in the country. I told him, take your work seriously but not at the cost of neglecting your family. I hope you and your wife compromise and settle your issues just for the good of your children. He added, my wife is my friend during college days we know each other very well, we are good as friends but not good as a couple, we better as friends than a couple. would you believe we are very much okay now than when were living together as a couple? I said, that’s a good sign, I hope you and your wife will soon be together again, do you still love her? he replied, I don’t know. Having a family is like having a refuge from the storm, a family is like a plant. It grows and blossoms, but remember, it also needs to be watered and taken care of. I believe “No other success can compensate for failure in the home.” If given a chance to have a complete family again, I will do my best not to let anyone else to break it especially in-laws. Everybody deserves a second chance.

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Last Saturday, before lunchtime after I knew that my blog site was broken and someone took over and change my email add and password of my Facebook account, I was so pissed off and mad. After I knew the location of the person who broke my blog site and took over my social accounts I suspected my friend, I can’t help myself and I lose my temper and I sent him off messages in his yahoo messenger. I know it is not proper to say bad words and condemned one person who is innocent until he is proven guilty of any crime or accusation. In short we fought through words but I told myself it’s not worth my time and energy the damage is been done, I can not do anything but to wish that my blog site will be okay and it takes time to bring it up. Thank God it was because of the best effort of my dear friend. Sunday evening, I got a phone call from him he said “I know the person who broke your blog, I know her personally”, I asked who did? …my live-in partner? I’m so shocked! Why she did it to me? I don’t even know her personally, for what reason? I don’t even knew that he has a live-in partner. I can’t say any single word after knowing who is responsible of evil actions. Why??? Being a woman, I understand her action, it’s jealousy! She even deleted all my pictures in my facebook account for what reason? simple, she’s jealous on me, maybe she feels I’m more beautiful than her? Lol! Kidding aside, I pity on her she feels she’s betrayed. I even got an email from her, after reading her mail I feel sorry for her for she doesn’t know what she’s talking about it’s just a plain jealousy of a woman who feels she’s betrayed by her partner for being unfaithful? Indeed, I understand her feelings but to do bad things to others just because of jealousy I don’t think it is acceptable. She should learn to know first the real story of any circumstances before making conclusion on the situation. Jealousy is the most distracted of mental and emotional feelings of one’s individual.

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Two weeks ago my Yahoo Messenger was hacked by someone, and sent bad words to my ym friends. Some are shocked they thought I’m angry with them, some replied ‘thank you’ and some ignore the message. My close friends who knows me well thought that it was a virus and some thought it’s not me. Yes, it wasn’t me! I sent sorry messages to them. Last Thursday early morning, I received a message from my friend abroad, “I received an email from you that you were robbed in the bus? Is this true? I want to know if your okay please let me know I’m just concerned.” I ignore the text message but I get irritated then I checked my laptop, I left it open the whole night because I charged my ipod but I forgot to log out in my yahoo messenger and it was invisible. I turn it off then I prepare myself of going to work, before I left the house I checked my blog site it was okay, and my other email address too, and my yahoo messenger I tried many times to log in but I can’t so I turn off my laptop and bring it to work. After I work and took my lunch I tried to log in to yahoo messenger but I can’t, I checked again my blog site and I was shocked because it was broken the other data was missing so I inform my friend about it. I checked my social networks but neither of them I can’t log in. I changed the passwords of my personal and company email address. I sent off line messages to my very close friend to checked my blog because it was hacked too, same with my other social networks.The good thing was the people who received an email from the hacker they ignore the massages, especially my close friends who knows me well that I don’t and I never ride a bus. After work, I watched a movie together with my friend, and I forgot about what happened that unlucky day. Friday, I just stayed home not in the mood to go to work instead I work at home. I checked again my social network I fixed the problem and it was okay then. Night time I posted a new comment in my blog. Saturday morning, I woke up late and I open my computer to check some emails, then I log in in my Facebook social network, I was surprised that my name and picture was different, it wasn’t me! someone change it and it was hacked again by the same person. I was so pissed off. My blog site was broken my last post was deleted and all of my previous posted blog. I’m still lucky because before I knew that my blog site was totally broken my very good friend fixing it at that moment and my blog was saved by my angel friend. To be continued…

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