My Heart And Me

What is the real beauty of a woman? To have a beautiful face? with a sexy body? with a flawless and silky skin? to have a long black hair? For me beauty is skin deep. We all too easy to lose confidence in our self, especially when we see images of a beautiful woman in the movies, on television, and in fashion magazines. Many women tend to think that looking good means looking like a super model or a Hollywood star. But we have to be realistic. Not all of us are shapely the same we all have our unique beauty inside and out. All of us can enhance our natural gifts. No matter what our looks are, we will always have the opportunity to be our best. We just all need to take care and love our self. Look good and feel better. For me I don’t have to spend a lot of money on cosmetics to look beautiful, as long as I’m healthy and I feel beautiful inside, I will most likely look wonderful outside. I’ve known some attractive people are the ones who take care of their physical and mental health without resorting to fancy or expensive products that have a temporary effects. What matter is how I carry myself and have a confidence of being me. Most people look on physical attributes that never last. I believe the real beauty is being a good person and having a pure heart. The inner beauty of a women are the savior of man kind. Lets be beautiful inside and our physical beauty will come out naturally.

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I had a busy weekend. Saturday night I attended a birthday party of my close friend with the kids. I had fun and the kids as well. It’s nice to met my old friends that I seldom see. Sunday afternoon we went to my aunt house for the get together. We had a happy moments eating together sharing happy, sad and funny memories during our younger years. We took lots of pictures same as before. When the night comes I ate pineapple and chocolate while were talking to each other. I forgot to think that pineapple and chocolate are bad combination. After a few minutes I felt stomach cramps that I never felt before. It was my first time to felt such kind of pain, my aunt gave me medicine. To relieved the pain and to avoid losing fluids in my body. I never thought that it could happen to me on the day of my aunt last 2 days in our country. It was a bad memory to be remember and a lesson to learn too. I felt so stupid not to be aware of the food I ate. Because of pineapple and chocolates I had a traumatic and painful experience. I realize I should take care of myself especially I live alone if something happen to me no one will take care of me when I get sick. Until now I’m not feeling well because of my stupidity.

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I may not be a perfect mother to my children, but I tried to be a good and a loving mother. I sacrificed my happiness not to think myself and to let them stay together. It was the most painful sacrifices that I’ve done as a mother, not to be with them to take care and guide them. Some people may not understand why I let them away from me, for me I just want to protect them from harm and not to be get hurt. But now I realized they are the one who are suffering the most from their father wrong doing. Their father never consider their feelings. He can do what he wants to do without knowing that he’s hurting their feelings. I understand him he’s just being true to himself and he wants to show to his children the reality in life. But as a mother I will do anything not to hurt them. I will fight for their rights to have a respect, love and dignity in their lives. It hurts me thousands or even million times when I saw them hurting. Knowing that I can give my whole life to take care and love them until my last breath on earth. For now I have to do what is right and to put things legally to have a peace of mind and to close this chapter of my life. To hope for the better future to live together with my loving children. It’s not easy to fight with the people who are materially influential but I have faith in God. I know God is with me, He will pour my life into my children. With all of my heart and soul I would walk every step of this journey just for the love of my children.

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