My Heart And Me

I had a visitor this early evening, I was waiting for them to come during lunch time to go swimming with my children, we waited for them the whole day but unfortunately my children left already when they came. My youngest brother and his girlfriend. I noticed something wrong with my brother’s girlfriend, she had a black eyed, I asked her “what happened to your eyes?” she said with teary eyed “your brother did it to me, he punched his head to my eyes”, I was shocked, I asked my brother “what did you do?” he said “she’s bad! she’s being unfaithful to me, she dated other guy!” And I said, “you don’t have the right to do that to your girlfriend!” They told me what happened. I told them, if you love each other you must have trust to each other. My brother is only 20 years old and and his girlfriend is only 16, they’re both so young to be seriously involve to each other. I told them to enjoy their relationship and their youthful. They need to talk to each other if there’s a problem and not to hurt each others physically. I told my brother not to hurt anybody especially girls. I feel so bad and so disappointed to my brother at his young age he’s being violent because of so much love he feels to his girlfriend. They’re both so young to know the real meaning of LOVE.

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Wednesday night me and my business partners had a meeting in our office. After the meeting we decided to take dinner in Fort Bonifacio besides the venue of our weekly events. While we’re on our way to the restaurant my friend and business partner said “what a midweek stressful working day”. I asked them “guyz how did you cope your stress in work? They laughed and said, “simple we release it through SEX!” Lol! I said what? how come your both single? Of course I know Lol! At the age of 23 they’re all sexually active. I asked them again, how many times you went to that kind of place? “It depends on the budget, actually twice or thrice a month. We went there to have a full body massage but mostly we asked extra service.” I told them to be cautious and be careful they should have protection when they do that. And they added, “we know, we are responsible enough to take care of ourselves for our protection, that place is quite expensive and the sex workers as well.” They enjoy the topic and making fun of it. They are comfortable talking and sharing their personal needs and feelings about their experiences, they never hesitate to answer my personal questions. They treated me as their older sister because of being open to each other our bonding as business partners and the friendship we have means a lot to me. Talking about sex with younger men and knowing that for men sex is one of the way of coping stress. Men are men they can’t live without sex, it’s like a hungry person looking for food to eat to satisfy the hunger. For me, being a conservative woman sex is not for fun and not a commodity that always available to the one who needs it. Doing it with love is the best way of coping stress.

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Last Saturday, me and my office mate had a lunch break together in one of the popular chinese fast food chain near our office. I asked him why he was absent for three days, ” are you preparing for your wedding day?” he laughed at me and said “no its to personal to tell you” how personal is it? He said, I was absent for three days because I under went to a general medical check up and the doctor told me I have to under go on treatment and I need a vacation from my work for my well being. I asked him what was the diagnose of the doctor? he said, secret! “I don’t want to tell you or anybody else for I don’t want them to have pity on me.” I said, it’s okay I understand but you should tell your family especially your mother that you are sick so she will take care of you. And he said, not now because I don’t want to bother my family especially my mother. I can feel his love to his family especially to his mother. He’s so kind, I admire him for being that way. He’s to young to suffer from sickness at the age of 23 he don’t deserve to be ill. The first time I met him he looks so healthy and active, after two months I noticed that he looses his weight vigorously. I admit, I pity on him at the same time I admire him for being strong to his journey. He was the extraordinary man in my posted blog month ago. I treat him as my younger brother and I like him for being so nice and a good person. I pray for his wellness. Lord give him the wisdom to take care of himself.

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