My Heart And Me

Wednesday night after work, I was waiting for a cab on a rainy night. I’m lucky, just a few minutes there was a new cab in front of me. I asked the driver if I can ride, he looks at me first then he agree and he let me in in his cab. While we’re heading on a traffic road, he asked me if it’s okay for me to add fifty pesos on the meter rate. I was shocked not because of what he’s asking but because at his young age he has the guts to ask and approach his passenger in a rude manner. I asked him nicely “how old are you? your so young to be a taxi driver, do you have a license? He replied “yes ma’am I have it and I’m 22 years old, my father allow me to drive his taxi to earn extra money while I have free time. “Oh! your father own this cab? nice to hear that.” I am working in day time in a multinational company, I’m in sales department.” I said “oh! that’s good at young age you work hard to earn money. Then I asked him “why you stared at me before you let me in in your cab?” He smiles and said “I choose my passengers if not good looking I don’t allow them.” Oh, thank you I’m lucky, and thank you for your compliment but it won’t stop me to say something for your own good. I said “Mr. young driver please don’t get me wrong, I’m just concern with you, your too young, and you should learn how to approach your passenger in a nice way, don’t learn those bad manner, If you want them to treat you nicely you should treat them nicely too. I feel what you feel, it’s hard to be a taxi driver now a days not all people will understand your way. For me if the driver is nice and polite I will give more than your asking price, and never judge one person on their looks, looks can be deceiving, treat your passengers equally. And he said “I’m so sorry ma’am for me I don’t see my way in a bad manner in asking my passenger, if it’s okay for them to add on the meter rate but if they don’t like it, it’s okay for me.” And I said just be nice to your passengers and never expect something from them just do your job, a passenger like me will give you more than you expected. When I reached my place I gave him double the price he asked but he didn’t accept it and he said “no ma’am this is too much I won’t accept it your advice is more than enough for me, always take care on your daily life, I admire your personality having a good looks and having a good heart, I wish we’re at the same age level.” Lol! I knew it no wonder he’s a good sales person I hope he will be a nice cab driver too.

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Friday, after lunch I had a meeting with the father of my kids. A day before he asked for a personal meeting and I wondered, it’s the first time he asked for it, and I started to think, the first thing in my mind was maybe he wants to get married again and he will ask for annulment. On that day after I took my lunch I had a call from him and he told me he was in Starbucks coffee shop and I told him to wait and I’m on my way. He was so eager to talk to me. He wasn’t there when I arrive the coffee shop, I texted him to come because I still need to work after the meeting. Just a few minutes he was there and asked for my drinks and I told him “no thanks I just finish my lunch.” The first words I uttered when he sat down in front of me was “what is all about on us?” And he smiles at me and said “I’m asking a favor from you, we’re not getting any younger and I want to get married again…” I said ” you want an annulment? I knew it, I am expecting this, and he said “yes I want to settle down.” And I asked him “did you remember before I leaved our house you told me “don’t worry I will take care of our children I will give my whole life for them.” And now your asking an annulment? because you will get married again? I asked and told you many times that I want an annulment but you told me “there will be no annulment between us” but still I insisted, I will give what you want but I want my kids to be with me.” And he said “it’s only between us, our annulment, but not for the children they will stay with me even when I get married!” What? I replied. did you talk to your lawyer on that matter? I think you don’t know what your talking about! Ignorance of the law, Lol! Talk to your lawyer about the annulment and the custody of the children is my concern. I will do my best whatever it takes, I want my kids to be with me because I’m their mother and it’s my right to get the custody. And he told me ” If that’s what you want there will be no annulment, I will do the “live-in” and my kids will stay with me.” He’s so selfish! to make the long discussion short, I gave him my last word, I’m not against with the annulment, all I want is the custody of my children. He said “no” they will stay with me! Then I walked away from the table with no looking back and I told myself “he’s still the same after many years he’s still selfish and immature!” When I was in the office he called me up and I told him “go on with the annulment petition and I will file a petition for the custody of our children” he’s still talking on the phone but I put down my cellphone to stop the argument. He called me up again but I didn’t bother to answer it, I was so stress out on that day. My friends and my colleagues was so supportive on my concerns they gave me some advises what to do and to be strong whatever will be the road I will take. I know God is on my side and He will grant my wish and hope that He will let it happen.

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All of us have witnessed instances when a friend or loved one has made bad choices – or through absolutely no choice of their own have simply been confronted with a tough set of circumstances. No human words or thoughts can explain away or provide comfort for certain kinds of suffering and pain. Maybe God doesn’t want us to be able to do so. He comforts us every time we have trouble, we can comfort them with the same comfort God gives us. I can live with confidence because God’s strength will protect and sustain me in all circumstances. When I’m going through tough times I must remember that my future is in God’s hands. Knowing that He has good plans for me, not plans to hurt me. God is trustworthy to make that plan happen.

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