My Heart And Me

In celebration of the special day for fathers. I sent a text message to the father of my children. I’m not expecting him to say anything or appreciate it. for me being the father of my angels I’m thankful that he’s the one. I’m reaching out to him for I want him to be my friend because he’s the father of my children. I know it takes time to heal the wounds in our hearts and forgive each other. For now we need to be friends for the sake of the children but he’s not ready yet. I understand. Humility is not thinking less of yourself it is thinking of yourself less. Pride builds walls between people, humility builds bridges. Humility is the oil that smoothes and soothes relationships. It’s not easy to forgive him but past is past. After all, I already moved on. and I learned a lot. I know time will come we can be friends. I believe that once we recognize it season has passed and resolved reflexive anger, given up bargaining and healed our hurting hearts, “acceptance” takes care of the rest by relinquishing the relationship to its natural course. No more false expectation. no more pain. Only acceptance. Bitterness is the greatest barrier to friendships.

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What it takes to be a good father? I know there is no one perfect in this world! Father’s Day… a special day, a day to thank a “special man” for all he has done-for listening and understanding, for loving and forgiving, and for always having time to laugh and share. How wonderful having the kind of father who’s thoughtful, gentle and kind…A father who’s ready to help you and listen to what ever you have in mind… Father’s Day… a perfect opportunity to show all the feelings that are always there but are rarely expressed. How wonderful having the kind of father who cares about all that you do… How wonderful having a father like that… a father who’s just like “you.” Father’s Day… the time to say “I love you.” Father, the wish is for Father’s Day… the love it brings is for always. To my father, and to my daughter’s father. To the father who’s very close to my heart and to all the father’s…Happy Father’s Day!!! “Nothing can replace the wisdom, guidance, and love of a father.”

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My day was full of emotions. It was started with excitement for the topics that we had discussed on our second day of seminar. During our seminar I felt a little bet confused because of too many information and I can’t absorbs all the topics that we discussed that morning. At lunch break. The group was so excited to know what will be our lunch for the day, because on our first day of seminar our lunch was a Japanese food and the group enjoyed it. In our 2nd day it’s Italian food! I made a joke to my colleagues that I hope the seminar will not end because I love the food and they’re agreed with me. It was a good lunch again with the group. I like the dessert it made me so happy and I gain more energy for our afternoon session. During our seminar the group felt that our new lecturer was so uneasy, worried and so nervous. And he told us that he’s sorry because his 10 yrs. old son was in a hospital and subject for an operation thats why he’s so worried and he’s waiting for his wife to call him at that time so all of us was worried too, in 5 minutes his wife called up and he feels relieved for his son was okay. Thank God! Our 2nd day seminar was ended. When I got home I called up my daughter to know how was her 3rd day in school. She cried and said “mama I miss you, I want too see you, can you please send me to school tomorrow?” I’m so guilty my daughter needs me and I don’t know what to do. I just told her that I’m busy and she understands me. what a day? Be sober and temperate, and you will be healthy.

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