My Heart And Me

I had a visitor last night. For almost three months he beg for my time just to see and talk to me personally. He called and sent a messages early in the morning asking a favor if we can talk. But last night I let him talked and see me for the last time. My ex-boyfriend. He’s asking if we can bring back the past and start all over again, because until now according to him his love for me still the same and getting more stronger than before. I told him “I’m sorry but I don’t love you anymore” he looked at me with teary eyed and hold my hands and saying “please don’t say that… I’m dying inside. I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you. I’m asking you to love me again. I will not promise anything but I won’t do it again and i will be faithful to you, comeback to me please.” People don’t realize what they have until they lost it. I gave him a second chance before but he did it again and now asking for a third chance? I gave my trust to him but he took it for granted. Every body deserves to have a second chance but giving it for the third time it’s a foolish thing to do. I gave my love and trust to him but now is gone. He told me this words before he leaved. ” I never loved like this until I met you. your my great love and you will stay in my heart forever.” I felt his pain when he leave my place he couldn’t walked, and looked back at me trying to hide the tears in his eyes. After two hours I received a text message from him, ” It’s like I came from far dessert place, I don’t know how I came home. I’m sorry! I’m so ashamed. I swallowed my pride feeling so small. But thank you for giving me a chance to see you for the last time, take care of yourself, I hope your happy with your life now.” I’m sorry too. thank you for loving me… If only I could turned back the time…

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What is a real happiness? what it takes to be happy in this materialistic world? Some says to have a good career, good family life, achievements of goals, having all the material things we needed in life. Nothing in life will make us more satisfied and more fulfilled than being happy. Is happiness happening in your life? For me it happens sometimes. But I want the real happiness. Someone told me that “happiness cannot come from without. It must come from within.” It is not what we see and touch or that which others do for us what makes us happy, it is that which we think and feel and do, first for the other fellow and then for ourselves. I think “It’s not what life does to me that matters, it is what I do in my life that really matters.” In my pursuit of happiness to be grateful for who I am and be contented for what I have is enough for me to be happy. Happiness is not just a feeling, it’s a condition, a choice and an attitude that we create. Happiness is something that you are, and it comes from the way you think. Happiness is free and achievable. I realize the simple, the cost-free the path to happiness can be. Always think positive. The power to be happy is within you.

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For me “respect” is the major part of our lives. I think it’s like a gift. When I show my respect for others, I am in effect offering them a gift of myself, my trust, my confidence, my sincerity, and my faith in them. In order to have respect for others, you must first have self-respect. Self-respect can help create a healthy, responsible outlook towards life. Self-respect makes me more humble I feel my ego doesn’t rule my feelings. It’s like you give yourself and your needs the same respect and dignity you give anyone else’s. When we respect others for the way they live their lives, we are telling them to respect us too. I remember one person that some time in my past I was disrespectful to her. “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” If you want to be treated with respect, then treat others with respect too. I learn that in life, everything comes full circle, so whatever you do to others will eventually comes back to you. when it does comes back to you, it’s going to be a lot more than you expected! Respect begets Respect.

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