My Heart And Me

A grieving period is required at the end of every romantic relationship. Yes, I initiated the loss, I chose it, but it’s still traumatic, extremely and stressful. Some people says the emotional highs and lows of unrequited love, have unpleasant emotions such as frustration, anger, anxiety, and guilt by the person who ended the relationship. I agree in some point, it is depend on the relationship we’re into. All of us have a hard time coming to terms with rejection. Interestingly, “men are more likely than women to deny the end of a romance. part of the reason for this is that men are prone to romantic crushes on women who are far more desirable than themselves and so find love more frequently unrequited.” For me, what ever the gender, however, we got to face the reality. I’ve got to admit the relationship is over, I know how difficult and painful it is, I have to move on because for the price I pay for denial is my dignity and self respect. I wanted to have a good cry to feel better, instead of keeping it in but I can’t do so. I had many heartaches and bruises in my heart, and now I don’t know what to feel, I just feel severe headaches instead. I’m so tired of being hurt. I just pray and hoping that one day I will find someone who make me whole again…

　　please click this banner?

Letting go of the person who I truly love dying me inside. I never been in love this way in my whole life. But the truth really hurts. I need to let him go for we are not meant for each other. The feeling is not mutual. What do you call? when you happen to know that there is just no hope of you have two being together, yet you still pray to make it work… It is when my mind says let go but my heart says hold on… but it will cause more pain in holding on when I know that it will never be, the pain will be the same….You’re done breaking my heart and you can’t see how much you hurt me this time. I never hated you for not loving me but I’m never going to show you how broken I am inside. I let the tears flow and I asked myself how can’t I let go of my feelings, but I have to let you go . Sorry for myself for it took me this long to let you go. The pain will stay forever and I will always love you till the rest of my life… Someday…

　　please click this banner?

We welcome 2009 like we used to do every new year. It was a bit stressful preparing the food of my daughters requests. Going to grocery that full of people buying food for media noche, was a challenging one. Most filipino’s used to rush in last minute shopping the food we need for festive events. After we took our dinner, I started to prepare the food alone, unlike before, I used to request someone to cook and prepare the food for New Year. It was tiring but I did it successfully for the sake of my kids and for welcoming the year 2009! My children wants to eat the food I prepare before the clock strike to 12, they can’t wait to taste the food I prepared. I can’t blame them for the food looks so yummy! Before the clock strikes to 12 we went down to the clubhouse to welcome the new year together with my neighbors here in our community. It was fun watching the kids and the adults enjoying lighting their fireworks display, taking pictures with their respective families and greeting each others “Happy New Year!” We took our media noche dinner with a red wine to toast for the new year with my children. We wish for our good health, prosperity, happiness and we will always be together every new years!

　　please click this banner?