My Heart And Me

I received a text messages from my ex-special friend. “I can’t find a words to say goodbye and to let you know that I’m getting married this coming Saturday, to the woman that you told me she’s the one for me. I admit its my fault for what happened to us. I don’t have the strength to tell you but I had a promise your the first one to know if I will settle down. It crushed my heart when you told me before that you don’t love me anymore, and to be faithful to my current girlfriend, but its you who owns my heart. I will never forget you, I never thought that I could love this way. I’m hoping you will grant my wish to see and kiss you for the last time before my wedding day.” I replied, Oh! that’s good! I’m happy for both of you! I wish you happiness and Congratulations! And he replied “please can you grant my wish before my wedding day? And I said, what for? no meaning to see each other, you will get married soon and it is not proper to see each other again just for one kiss and saying goodbye… I know his family and me had a great relationships and we will remain the same. Yes, we had a promise what ever happens, we will be friends, but as a respect to his fiancee, I think, I don’t need to keep that promise. His fiancee is so jealous on me. I don’t want to hurt her feelings. What ever happens the friendship I have to his family especially to his father and sisters will be the same. The family who treated me well, loved and accepted me of who I am will always be in my heart. Thank you for being part of my life and for loving me unconditionally. I will never forget you and your family.

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Truth will set me free! I will not give up on myself and not to repeat all the mistakes I made in my life.

I am free, free to love as never before. Throwing open windows and doors, rejoicing in my wholeness.
I see clearly as I run with purpose choosing the right road no longer stumbling over my own neediness.
I move even paced head high, shoulders back, heart firmly in place making choices with my head not from my heart, ignoring the demands of the flesh.
I stretch my spirit and respond to God’s voice running eagerly toward His instruction caught up in His potent promises I am bound to Him a willing love slave yet freer than I’ve ever been finding the lost pieces of myself.

I foolishly gave to others casting pearls before the swine once weeping over the trampled pieces of my heart.
I am now restored to give again to one more deserving…
I discover, I am lost in Him only to be found in the truth stronger than ever ready to love better because now I have more to give and I will give carefully, abundantly and only at His leading and in that understanding…
I rest… I fly… I am free…

God knew when I would finally get it, and He saved that special man for such a time as this. no time has been wasted in God’s perfect design for my life.

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I visited a very close friend in her office 2 days ago. We talked about our life, a usual way of a friends who seldom see each other because of busyness in work, business and in family. She is a successful business woman and a happily married woman and a caring mother as well. She’s one of my close friends. We knew each others personal life but I never knew that she is so submissive to her husband. I was surprised because having a strong personality I can’t believe she was. I asked her, “since you got married are you submissive to your husband?” She said no! not at all! living with my husband for 15 years I learned how to be submissive but there is an exception, if he have a point when it comes to our relationship and even in our business, its just a matter of respecting each others personal views, opinions and authority.” She added, sometimes we had a fight because he felt I’m stepping and hurting his ego as a man and being the president and the chairman of our company. I have to consult him first before I decide in everything, as a respect to him as my husband.” She had a point if I have a chance to get married again I will do the same thing. If all the time spent in a relationship is focused on competition, how will you move forward as a couple? God designed marriage to be living, breathing example of the hierarchy of heaven. In heaven,there are levels of authority. God is at the head and everything works outward from Him. I don’t have someone in my life but I can feel about submission in my everything living with God, who is presently filling the mate slot in my life. I learn to recognized and admit I need a help, and realizing my help lies in submission: submission to God, submission to others, submission to the mate that God provides.

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